Day 31: Nike Air

Let's do some Mathematical equations here. So that this entry may have some uniqueness in it. So any resembles to actual events like person, event, place is purely unintentional. Hahaha ... :)

A. Assumptions:
1. Let x be person A.
2. Let y be person B.
3. Let m be the topic of me and A.
4. Let n be the source or desired destination of any conversation.

B. Objectives:
1. To determine why such a statement has been said.
2. To determine why such an incident happened.

C. Situation:
1. Last month, x and I were talking, sharing some thoughts, some insights when it suddenly said that it wished that m be transfered totally all to n. I know it wasn't such a big deal for it but it kinda hurt me because WTF ... did it really think that it or it's crowd are way better than anyone of us? Did it really think that it may have offended me with it's remark? Did it really think that the way it was doing was completely perfect? I was really pissed off that time. I could just throw back at it the many faults it have but I just kept quiet. I guess I don't want to sink to it's level or that maybe I was just good and decent enough to watch what I say.

2. There was a time that B and I were really in good terms. Oh don't get me wrong, I still do respect B but it's just that if given a choice, I wouldn't be caught dead with it. The more interactions I have with it the more I distance my self because I do not like what it is doing. And I don't want to unintentionally inherit that. Influences are passed on without our knowing and it's not easy for us to see it immediately. More often, it is the people around us who can see us clearly when we are changing into something. Anyway, back to B. I've learned that B now is ... how shall I say this ... maxed out. And yet how come I don't have any guilt feeling? Nor do I feel sorry for it. And why do I have this karma as the reason thing floating in my mind? Am I really that bad now?

D. Conclusion:
1. I guess when you get close even just a little bit to someone you tend to break down all the walls that you put up to protect you. And this I think is such the main reason why I do get hurt easily. And sometimes, I do get hurt pretty much easily especially when I have my period. Hehehe ... Kidding.

2. I think I just always try to see only the good side of a person. I don't intend to dwell much on what they are known for, or what they can do but what I think they all are capable under the name of love and/or friendship. I guess I'm kinda just your average person who believes that life is full of happy things and happy thoughts that we can just live on it and not care about what the other side is. Or maybe I just didn't had the chance to deepened what I've knew about how I should treat or react to a person's individuality.

Hahaha ... what a weird entry this is. Anyway, go figure. :)