Day 38: Chasing Amy

Last night was indeed quite a unique Heart's day celebration I had here in the Land of the Rising Sun. I was actually thinking that they would celebrate or at least just make it feel like today is such a day but I was so wrong.

Anway, aside from the stores that sells heart-shaped chocolates, there's really not much into this occassion. But since for me it is something, I decided to do something to make this day a little bit out of the ordinary. So what I did was I planned to go to Roppongi and see it as something that it is famous for ... disco and night-outs.

But since Janice can't leave the office yet for some project-related deadlines and stuffs like that, it was just me and Noel who went there. And take note it was the day that Noel arrived in Japan. Imagine, his first night and he's already going out. Hahaha.

The place was much, much better than during the day time. The lights were pretty cool. The people there all looked good and dressed to kill. Then the view of Tokyo tower at night is also nice. I guess everything that is well-lighted in the night with flashy colored lights are nice.

So we walked around there, went into some stores, looked for some cute guys, being asked if we would like to go to their club/bar, went into a pet shop with so many adorable and cuddly puppies worth around 150, 000 yen as the cheapest, and some picture takings. Hehehe. But we didn't explore that much because both of us have to do the next day (me work him training).

After getting home, I was able to get a copy of Kiss the Rain song by Billie Myers from Rachel while copying pictures to her mobile hard disk. But the track was not just the song. It also had a monologue ... from the movie Chasing Amy. And the lines were pretty romantic ... or I was just into the Heart's day fever so here at the office while being idle, I searched for this movie and kinda find it interesting. So, another movie to queue. Hehehe. :)

Below is the monologue I was refering to early on and some nice lines too.

Alyssa: Why are we stopping?
Holden: Because I can't take this.
Alyssa: Can't take what?
Holden: I love you.
Alyssa: You love me?
Holden: I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can't take this anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't, I can't look into your eyes without feeling that, that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. And I know this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended - but I had to say it, because I've never felt this way before, and I don't care. I like who I am because of it. And if bringing this to light means we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But God, I just, I couldn't allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And, you know, I'll accept that. But I know... I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too. All I ask, please, is that you just, you just not dismiss that - and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds. Alyssa, there isn't another soul on this fucking planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it is there between you and me. You can't deny that. Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me, which - while I do appreciate it - I'd never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of.

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Alyssa: You know, I didn't just heed what I was taught, men and women should be together, it's the natural way, that kind of thing. I'm not with you because of what family, society, life tried to instill in me from day one. The way the world is, how seldom it is that you meet that one person who just *gets* you - it's so rare. My parents didn't really have it. There were no examples set for me in the world of male-female relationships. And to cut oneself off from finding that person, to immediately halve your options by eliminating the possibility of finding that one person within your own gender, that just seemed stupid to me. So I didn't. But then you came along. You, the one least likely. I mean, you were a guy.
Holden: Still am.
Alyssa: And while I was falling for you I put a ceiling on that, because you *were* a guy. Until I remembered why I opened the door to women in the first place: to not limit the likelihood of finding that one person who'd complement me so completely. So here we are. I was thorough when I looked for you. And I feel justified lying in your arms, 'cause I got here on my own terms, and I have no question there was some place I didn't look. And for me that makes all the difference.

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Holden: It's not who you love, it's how.